Today I had my first every chop saw 101 demo course. Excitement mixing with fear: excited for trying out and gaining a new skill but also afraid of the power and the grave consequences if I didn’t use the tool properly.
‘Safety First’, ‘Always tie your hair’, ‘Find a cutting buddy’, ‘Never Chop ALONE’. All these signs and Nell’s repeating words really put me on a full alert of the serious consequences. If I wasn’t in this 3D class, I would definitely ask for help and let others cut my woods into pieces for me since I felt this is ‘heavy masculine’ work that I have never had any experience. But in class, I paused myself for a second when I saw other students confidently took turns and make their cuttings. Why couldn’t I do heavy work by myself? I really do not want to find another excuse rather than my doubt about my ability or afraid of the gender stereotype by showing too much masculinity. I rethink my fear, the terrible excuse, and escapism I made up for myself in the past. I came up front the chop saw and shout “Cutting” out aloud. The whole process only takes around 5 secs without much effort, which just like my fear is easily snapped into pieces.